Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Megan's LiveJournal:

Thursday, June 7th, 2007
9:23 pm	No One Really Cares She looks at her reflection in the mirror. She doesn’t know the girl is that is looking back at her. She hides her fear and depression from the rest of the world. No one likes an over emotional person. So she hides every single one. Everyone talks to her about what’s wrong in their lives. She wants to tell them too, but she knows that no one really cares. No one wants to hear what she has to say. “It’s drama,” some people would say. She doesn’t want to be a burden to everyone. So she keeps to herself. She pushes everyone away from her. People ask her what’s wrong. She answers, “Nothing.” But really, she does want to tell them. She tells people to leave her. But really, she wants to have someone there with her… comforting her. But no one really cares. She wasn’t always like that. She used to be happy and wouldn’t be afraid to tell her friends what was wrong. But then people started insulting her, making it hard for her to speak. And people told her that they don’t want to listen. “You’re getting fat.” “You really need to start losing some weight.” “You’re selfish.” “You’re ungrateful.” “You suck as a person.” “You’re a bitch.” “I don’t want to listen to what you have to say.” “No, I really don’t care.” So you see? No one really cares. Everyday she hears those words repeat in her ears. She would watch her reflection in disgust and would say, “No one cares. Who wants to listen to how broken I am inside? Who wants to hear how empty I really feel? And yet, the same person who told me that they don’t want to listen tells me the crap that goes on in her life. And guess what? I listen. No one really cares. No one knows who I really am…” She prays every night for internal healing. She prays for anything that could help her. Anything. And yet, she continues to feel empty. She continues to feel broken. She watches herself slowly fall apart. And know one knows. And as she slowly fades away, no one will know. Because no one really cares. Current Mood: blank (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
3:03 pm	I miss you... </3 I put my heart out there. And I put it on the line. And I got it broken. That was my own fault. I thought this time was going to be Different. But I guess I was wrong... Again. Let me sing you a song. Let me write you a story. It's about you and I. How we could've been. We could've been happy. We could've been in love. We could've been a lot of things. But that "could've" is now a "couldn't". We couldn't be happy. We couldn't be in love. We couldn't be a lot of things. It's almost been a year... And I still think about you. And I wonder if you still think about me. What happened? That's all I keep asking myself. I miss you... And I hate you. Let me sing you a song. Let me write you a story. It's about you and I. And how we will never be. If I fell, Would you look back And take my hand? Like you used to do. No, now your gone, Forever. And I guess... I'll have to pick myself up alone. Let me sing you a song. Let me write you a story. About how I fell in love. And how you never looked back. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
11:06 am	A Love Song part 2 I thought everything Was going to be alright. Then one night, It all fell apart. I cried. I talked to you about it. It didn't help at all. You made it worse. "I DO like you... but I LOVE her..." Is what you told me. You tore my heart out When you said those words. No one has ever held me like How you've held me. I've never held anyone's hand Like I held yours. I thought something could've happened. Something good. But hey, I'm never right about anything. So your with her once again. And I'm left here all by myself. But do you care? Probably not. Your happy, so why would it matter To you how I feel? You don't understand... At all. I asked you, "Everything is going to change now... isn't it?" And you say, "No, not at all." But it will. You changed it all. It was you who changed. Not me. This fairytale... Didn't have a happy ending. This fairytale... Was a nightmare. Two weeks go by since that night. And we haven't talked since. I guess it's better off this way. And you don't care. So this is goodbye. "Just came to say goodbye love. Goodbye love, came to say goodbye love. Goodbye." Current Mood: heartbroken (Comment on this)
Friday, July 21st, 2006
5:25 pm	A Love Song I met you last summer. It was perfect. We became close friends. But then it fell apart. She came into the picture, Pushing me out of it. You hurt me. It made me hate you. But then I would see your face. The way your eyes would soften. I can never hate you. And I hated that I couldn't. Everyday I would see her with you. I longed to be her. I wanted to be the one standing next to you. I guess it will never be. You hurt me everyday... For a whole damn year. I hate you for that. I couldn't stand it. I would be mad at you when I close my eyes, Until I open them the next morning. Then I would see you. And I would fall apart. And then one day, I was with you. She had left the picture. And it was back to how it all started. A love story. I felt your hand lightly touch my face. I felt your lips against mine. I felt your hand touch mine. I felt your eyes look threw me. I love you. I finally see it now. Will this end like a fairy tale? Will we live happily ever after? I guess we will never know... Until the story is over. Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
1:58 pm	I'll love you I'll love you when you're dumb, I'll love you when you're smart, I'll love you any way you are, Right from the start I'll love you if you're tall, I'll love you if you're short, I'll love you if you're pretty, Or just an ugly dork I'll love you if you're toothless, I'll love you if you're blind, Anything that's wrong with you, To me you'll be just fine My heart is opening up now, Unlike it used to do, I see the pain that's in your heart, And sometimes I feel it too I'll love you tomorrow, I'll love you today, I'll love you forever, And forever always. ♥ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 29th, 2006
3:16 pm	Scars I carry these scars with me, everyday of my life. Yet no one can see them. They're all over me. They are invisable. They are from all of the harsh words said to me. All the looks given to me. All of the heartbreaks. I try to cover up them up. Some people see them. And know how I feel. It's like putting salt in a wound. It burns every time. Some scars are deeper than others. And I used to wonder everyday, "When will these scars heal?" And I realize... That they won't. They will carry them forever. Current Mood: Hurt (Comment on this)